This bitch

Oh hello there! Its been a while since I posted a new entry. I missed this (sharing your thoughts, no guilt and no boundaries) FREEDOM. Actually this post will be bloody, i`m so pissed right now that I want to kill a bitch. I hate hating persons who are really close to me especially my friends but letting them get away with the wrong things they did will be worse. I don`t have things against her but she really offended me by what she did. fine I will own up to what I did, but you can never correct a mistake by another mistake. If you`re reading this now I know you feel bad about the things I said to him. Actually I don`t effin feel guilty about what I said about him because he deserves to know how insensitive he was. Please put yourself in my situation and I`m sure you will do the same if you experienced what happened to me. I don`t need your sympathy but understanding will do. He almost tear ed my heart apart and blogging is the only thing I did. Ayoko ng bastusan dude. THANKS FOR READING. LEAVE COMMENTS? Sure. But please keep this to yourself, you don`t need to share it.

Bestfriend

Hi Bestfriend Tin Tin. >:D< Hahaha. Yan talaga kinuha kong picture mo kasi may I ♥ SF. >:) Ako yan SF (KUNWARE) Gusto ko lang i-blog to kasi first time ko magka-bestfriend ng lalake, AT ramdam ko talagang true friend kita. :) Kahit hindi tayo nagbobonding? ><" Haha. Deh promise mo naman sa Aniversarry naten gagala tayo eh. Kahit ang tagal pa non? =)) 2 months palang tayo pero feeling ko matagal na tayong tropa. Haha. Mga salita kong pang kalye eno? :)) Deh, pero yung totoo, I swear to you i`ll be here for you always when you need someone to talk to. When a girl leaves you i`ll stay with you. When you need money that`s when I can`t support you. :)) LOL No seriously, love kita Tin kahit ako ordinary friend lang siguro ako para sayo. Nye drama ko. Sorry dati kung nagtatampo ako agad sayo. Pero sana hindi na tayo ulit magkatampuhan tulad dating lagi kitang natatarayan. :)) Sorry ang arte kong kaibigan ha? Gusto ko laging nilalambing. Feeling bata bestfriend mo eh pasensya ka. Hehe. Osige na di na ko mangungulit. I love you Bestfriend. ♥

its a lot harder than it seems. You talk all day, everyday. You fall asleep on the phone together. You wake up to good morning texts. You think about them every second you’re awake then when you’re asleep, you dream about them. You spend time with them whether its in person or not. They soon become a part of your everyday life and you get used to it. Then all of a sudden, they leave. Most of the time once they’re gone, they’re gone for good. Meaning, no more late night calls, no more cute text messages (actually no texts at all), no more ’i love you’ ‘babe‘ all of that. The first few days you will want to call, text, send them an ask, IM, really do everything just to talk to them and restore what’s “normal”. But, as much as you try,  things don’t change. The hardest part is letting go. You check their tumblr and facebook often just to see what they’re doing and also to see if they have someone new. This person that was once your everything is now just a memory. A memory that you replay over and over again in your head. You spend nights reminiscing in the said words, shared laughs, the kisses, all the good things that went on during the time you two were together. Letting go can take weeks, months, even years. Remember that this was just a fragment of time, a memory that will someday fade.
~TUMBLR
This post made me cry. I just remember how to feel this way.

Weird feeling

This damn day is like a storm, I don’t get why I feel this way. :( Its kinda weird because I don’t have a reason to feel like this. -_- It`s just that, the memories still haunts me. It`s almost a year but the pain is still felt. I still remember that words that came from his lips. He said “Tatanggapin mo ba yung FRIENDSHIP na i-ooffer ko sayo?” That exact moment I thought he will say that he feels the same for me. But yeah, i`m wrong. That sting I felt that time still remains. </3 I feel so bad that night. Irony isn`t it? The person you love can`t love you back because they love somebody else. Handa pa naman akong ibigay na lahat sayo. Pero sa totoo lang nabigay ko na lahat ng kaya kong ibigay sayo. :( Now i`m listening “I won`t give up” Siguro, dapat na kong gumive-up? Haha. I`m crazy right? Suppose to be dati pa ko nag-give up kasi naman alam ko naman na ayaw niya sakin eh. But I can`t blame myself. Tinamaan talaga ako sa kanya eh. He`s not like the rest. He is really a rare guy, kapag nagmahal kasi siya sagad. (Parang yung love ko for him) Yun nga lang his heart beats for D*nn*. I seriously hate that girl for giving him a heartbreak, for making him cry and for teaching him to be scared to love again. I THOUGHT we had the chance to be together. I THOUGHT I`ll have the chance to prove him how I love him. But he didn`t gave me the chance to show him how I care and love him. That`s it. Ang sakit sakit eh. Ang hirap magintay, lalo na hindi naman siya dadating. K This feeling sucks. Love sucks. No, love doesn`t suck. I suck. That is why he can`t love me back. Why? “Anu bang kulang sa akin?” I always wanted to ask him that question. >.<

DAY 2 COLOUR

Day 2 COLOUR #photoadayApril

DAY 1 REFLECTION

DAY 1 REFLECTION ♥

This is my reflection. Hi! My name is Sarah, and a lil bit information about me is I really love PHOTOGRAPHY. :> I actually took this photo before having my make up for my Promenade. Nuff said. :) Smile! ☺Smile! ☺Smile! ☺Smile! ☺Smile! ☺Smile! ☺Smile! ☺Smile! ☺Smile! ☺Smile! ☺ ♥

Spiritual Talk

Just got home from a spiritual talk with my brother. :) Lol Kala ko spiritual siya pero parang emotional talk talaga siya. =)) May isang quotation na tumatak sakin na sinabi ng facilitator. "#MAHIRAP MAGHINTAY LALO NA KUNG WALA KANG HINIHINTAY". </3 Its kinda striking when I heard him saying that quote. Kasi I`ve been waiting for this guy for a year now already but yeah wala pa din and hindi na ata siya dadating ever. Okay ang loner kong. Laslas. Yun lang I just want to share what happened today. :)

Superman ♥

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This guy. Wala lang, gusto ko lang iadmit na ikaw pa din talaga. Kahit ang tagal tagal na? Haha. Sorry ha? Maybe you`re just a remarkable guy. I`m not really bitter pagdating sayo kasi nag-sorry ka naman, pero sa totoo lang you don`t have to say sorry because you tried, you tried to love me back. All I want lang naman kasi is maging honest ka about how you feel before. Masakit lang naman talaga is yung binitawan mo yung mga salitang "Magbago ka lang liligawan kita.". Mali kasi sayo Mavz you don`t need to strive para ma satisfy lahat ng tao. Okay lang naman sakin na hindi mo ko magustuhan eh. All I want is for you to learn to love me NG KUSA. Hindi mo lang talaga siguro binuksan yung puso mo that is why hindi mo ko natutunan mahalin. I`m fine don`t you worry. Matagal ka nanaman insensitive right? Sino ba naman hindi matatauhan kapag may umiyak sa harap ng isang lalaki. I`ve done everything just to meet your standards, in fact nalagpasan ko pa nga yata yun eh. Imagine, si Danna lang naman yung dapat kong pantayan eh. Pero hindi pa din ako sapat, you know why? Because siya lang talaga mahal mo. And SIYA kasi TINANGGAP mo ng buong puso YET hindi ka minahal ng pabalik. How ironic right? Kung sinung mahal mo hindi ka kayang mahalin ng pabalik. :) Pero nagpapasalamat pa din ako sa kanya kasi I learned to be a great and fine lady again. Eh ganun talaga eh may mga taong akala natin para sa atin eh. Swerte lang mga tao na nakahanap na. But now we`re still friends. Ilang na nga lang talaga sometimes. People change for 2 reasons: 1) They have learned a lot. 2) They have been hurt too much.

BYE

I just saw this on my tumblr`s dashboard. Nakarelate lang. Lol. -__- Kasi naman this guy (nanaman) I like is actually a douche bag. Yun nga, when he did something WRONG and REALLY OFFENDING, he says sorry and ask me to forgive him and stop ignoring him. I just don`t understand why still wants me to be in his life. In fact wala naman ako for him, i`m just a 2nd option. Yung lang nakakainis kasi yung ginawa niya nung senior`s ball. He said sorry tapos I saw him dancing with this ANOTHER GIRL and then suddenly this girl KISSES him on the cheek. I was like. >:( O`cmon you just said sorry tapos ayan ka nanaman sa pagiging douche bag mo. Sige na ayoko na nga, last na talaga toh. I won`t ever talk to you ever again. BYE

New guy

Bago kong inspiration okay. Nuff said baka madami pang umagaw. Kidd. :">

#BOY G ♥

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Okay don`t mind the face. I know I look so ugly (coz i`m a faggot) LOL. Anyways, I just wanna share to you guys this happy and unhappy event. =)) I just got my card from my school. (Pateros Catholic School) And the reason why i`m so happy is because my grades is somehow average. :D YAY! I got 86.72 overall average. I`m so proud of myself. Kfly. =)) And the reason behind my frown is this is my last chance to get my card in my alma mater, next year maybe sa POVEDA(?) ko na kukunin yung card ko. Aww. And I find it so funny kanina kasi I was about to ask my adviser kung when will we get our section. And I was like. :O Oh my gosh hindi na nga pala ako dito mag-aaral. </3 Yun lang. I`m just so unhappy today. :(

THERE’S ALWAYS THAT ONE BEAUTIFUL GIRL WHO DOESN’T HAVE A BOYFRIEND, AND YOU CAN’T UNDERSTAND WHY.

THERE’S ALWAYS THAT ONE BEAUTIFUL GIRL WHO DOESN’T HAVE A BOYFRIEND, AND YOU CAN’T UNDERSTAND WHY. 

Bakit kaya kahit gano kaganda, kasarap kausap at kaseryoso ng isang babae hindi pa din na-aappreciate ng mga lalake sa paligid niya kung gaano ka special niyang girl? Kahit naman hindi siya maganda masyado tulad ni Anne Curtis may natatangi pa din siyang kagandahan na nakatago at naghihintay lang na madiscover ng isang lalake na magpapahalaga sakanya. Ang nakakalungkot kasi kung sino pa ang napaka-positibo ang tinggen sa love yun pa ang naloloko, kaya madalas naiiba yung pananaw sa love eh. KAYA NAGIGING BITTER, at NAGHIHIGANTI. Sobrang nakakapanghinayang lang yung mga panahon na sana nagmamahal at sumasaya ang isang babae, kesa saktan at ubusin lang ang lakas sa pagmumukmok sa kwarto at mangarap ng isang relasyon na hindi puro panloloko at problema ang idinudulot.

Simple lang naman ang gusto naming mga babae eh, at yun yung mahalin kami pabalik, ingatan, huwag lokohin at huwag gawing number 2. 3. 4. o 5…. Gusto namin “AKO LANG”. At kung gawin nyo man yan hindi naman masasayang yung effort nyo eh. Katunayan nga baka maisip nyo na mas masaya ang makuntento sa isa kesa manakit ng nakakarami.

HINDI LAHAT NG TAKEN MASAYA

HINDI LAHAT NG TAKEN MASAYA 

Hihihi. Di ko alam kung bakit yan ang trip kong topic. :) Hindi po ako taken ngayon, pero sige magffeeling ako. =)) I have this close friend kasi who is in relationship kelan lang its so bumpy right now. Hindi pa naman sila super tagal  na as in years. Mga 10 months na din sila. Ayun sobrang sweet nila as a couple kapag nakita mo sila together nung guy, lagi siyang sinusundo legal sila both sides. Pero yun nga wala naman perfect sa mundong ibabaw right? Kaya yun may isang girl na bigla na lang nag-approach sa friend ko she is asking kung sila pa nung bf ng friend ko so she said yes. After a while yung girl biglang nag burst out na siya daw yung bago bi J***. At first naniwala yung friend ko nag-usap sila and naayos nila BUT parang may doubt din kasi kami sa guy kasi parang he is telling a lie. Nagbreak sila nung friend ko and for now narealize ko hindi nga masaya ang single yung as in alone. Pero parang mas nanaisin ko na din siguro na mag-isa kesa naman na magpaloko ako. The right guy will come around. :) No need to rush things kaya here I am ENJOYING my life ALONE.tropa muna kami ni FOREVER ALONE. =))

I GET JEALOUS EASILY.

I GET JEALOUS EASILY. 

I’m not gonna lie, I get jealous when other girls talk to you, hang out with you, or even look at you. Not because I have something against them but because I’m afraid that they have more to offer you than I do.

Crush :)

Phillip Phillips. ♥

I just damn like this guy. Lovely voice, cute facial expressions and he is so simple. :) He isn`t a fancy fancy guy type but he is really down to earth. CRUSH. ♥ LOL

Dude hindi ka trustworthy. BOW

SARAP NG FEELING :) 

Ang sarap pala ng feeling ng nakakamove on ka na ng unti-unti. :) Pero feeling ko din dahil di lang kita nakikita kala ko nakakaget-over na ko sayo. -__-LOL ang nega ko lang. Pero yun totoo din siya in a way. Bukas ko na lang siguro mapapatunayan na naka-move on na ko kapag nakita kita AT hindi na ko galit o bitter sayo ibig sabihin okay na ko. Ibig sabihin WALA na kong PAKIALAM sayo. I`m not one of your girls anyway. And imagine? 2 beses mo na kong pinaasa sa wala. :) Thank you ha? (Sarcastic) lagi mo kong iniiwan sa ere. Sana in the future marealize mo at makarma ka! Goodluck. Sana wala ng ibang babae and maloko mo sa COLLEGE. :*

I love them ♥

For real? I met so many many many as in many friends and wonderful human being in highschool. :"> Freshmen year I met the eksena girls (Reinee, Donita, Renelyn, Carmela, Tweety, Jorelle, Ranes & Jessica.) and during my sophomore year were still together but we added some new friends. And it was our best year. Junior life I met these two pretty girls (Pauline and May) ♥ Seniors. Last year in Highschool, Its like we always have a party in our classroom everyday. I met my awesome friends (Marinell, Hohan, Eric, Anna, Erese, January, Rowel and many more) I love this people in my blog because they never leave my side when I need them. And I will never forget them. Hope to see you more often guys! I LOVE YOU! ♥

Continuation of my story. :) (Graduation)

"I declare you graduates". Aww. I`m an alumnae already. :( So it the end of a chapter in my life and a beginning of a more challenging one. -__- I hope I can cope with the complications in college. I need to make new friends again, new cheatmates, and new haters I guess. ><" Oh well its a whole new world out there to explore. And I know God will always guide me. :)

Unsaid feelings

Unsaid feelings. -_- I`m guilty of this because I actually like like this guy and I think i`m falling for him too. But I can`t tell him what I really feel about him because he might misinterpret it and just avoid me. I dunno why i`m so prone to fall for the douche bags. And he is a douche bag. He flirt other girls, he love to party and he had this "NO STRINGS ATTACHED" policy. And i`m not that type of person anymore, I prefer more serious relationships. I envy those girls he always hug, kiss and talk to. I don`t want to be the one who is really the first mover so i`ll just shut up and watch him do what he likes. :(

St.Pius Overall Champion

This is a photo me holding our trophy and my medal because we won the overall champion in our intramurals. ♥

Hi there. :) Oh my effin goshie. :( Time really flies. Tomorrow will be the end of my High School life, i`m sure I will cry tomorrow. =)) Still confused where to study in college. -____-

General Practice

Just got home from school. We just had our general practice for our graduation on Friday. :"> :( Mixed emotions today. :( Kasi naman gagraduate na nga lang ako may pahabol pa kong kaso. -__-

Anyways here`s a picture of me wearing my toga. Laugh out loud I`M NOT EXCITED. </3

First Blog!

Hi! First blog here in blog spot. :) I`m still a lil bit confused so my blog site is quite a mess. Its kinda rush because I still need to go back to school for our general practice for Graduation. :( -__- I`m so sad because in a short time i`m gonna leave my alma mater. So yeah I`ll just be blogging more often here. Bye! ♥ ☺